Stay Here

 © Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

Emptiness, silence,

I am.

I’m out of reach of the movement of the mind.

O this trickery mind.

I salvage the silence within me 

before it gets gulped up by the noisy mind, 

the destroying force within me.

The force that does everything in its power

to distract me from what I am,

from my true identity.

I just need to stay here,

I just need to be.

I don’t want to go to war with my thoughts. 

They are slippery, and demanding of my attention,

like an enemy within.

An enemy that I hardly notice until it’s too late. 

Sleep no more,

it’s time to be vigilant.

It’s time to wake up.

-Nanne Nyander "The Struggle of Going Nowhere"

You’re Already Here

© Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

One step forward, two steps back. 

Two steps forward, one step back. 

Why are you moving at all? 

You’re already here. 

-Nanne Nyander  "The Way Back Home"

Too Tired

© Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

I’m dying, I’m sinking,

you’re singing, I’m crying.

Will this ever be over?

I’m dying inside.

Is this how it’s supposed to be?

I’m empty, I’m drowning.

I know it’s just a story in my head. 

Still, my inside is like a volcano,

but hard as a rock of ice.

Nothing seems to be able to melt it.

My inside is my outside,

and it’s empty and full at the same time.

I can’t think, but still, there are thoughts. 

I’m too tired to move, too tired to not move. 

I cannot do anything,

I cannot not do anything.

I’m dying, I’m falling.

I can’t move forward, and I can’t go back. 

Will this ever be over?

-Nanne Nyander "One Without a Second"