I’m Stuck

 © Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

I’m stuck in the in-between,

no going forward, no going back.

I’m stuck in my own creation,

a creation I never chose to be in.

I’m stuck.

I can’t just let everything be,

and just be.

Be what?

Everything has fallen apart,

and I am in the middle of everything. 

There is no way back and no way forward. 

Show me the way and I will follow,

but I’m left on my own.

Why have you abandoned me?

I can’t find my way out of this,

I’m so tired,

but I have to move forward.

Maybe to move forward is to not move at all.

-Nanne Nyander "One Without a Second"

Without a Thought or Sensation

 © Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

I am,

is a sound in the mind

and a sensation in the body,

but I am neither.

I am before that.

I am aware of the sound 

and the feeling of I am. 

I am, without a thought or sensation.

I am.

-Nanne Nyander "One Without a Second"

Lost in the Struggle

 © Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

Lost in the struggle with the mind. 

Insignificant noise within the immense silence, 

the eternal light of the one.

-Nanne Nyander "Out of the Labyrinth"

Free to be Nothing

 © Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

What’s the feeling of being free?

Space is moving inside me.

I follow the movement,

thoughts are popping up here and there,

but they don’t mean anything to me anymore.

I can watch the thoughts appearing out of nothing, 

and disappearing into nothing.

If I don’t follow them, they quietly move past me, 

I don’t need to hide anymore.

I’m out in the open, I’m totally vulnerable,

but I’m free, free to be vulnerable,

free to be nothing.

Free to be.

-Nanne Nyander "One Without a Second"

Bewildered by the Silence

 © Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

I breathe in the stars and the moon,

the sky appears as my body.

The empty space between everything

is not empty at all.

It contains a mystery

bigger than the human mind can ever fathom. 

Listen to the silence between the words that are spoken, 

in between every note that is played,

and you can understand without understanding,

see without seeing,

hear without hearing,

be without being.

Bewildered by the silence

in the breath of the universe.

-Nanne Nyander "One Without a Second"

The Ground of Oblivion

 © Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

Photo by Nanne Nyander

Snow, pure snow, cover me,

make me as pure as you.

Freeze all the clinging to thought, 

make it fragile and break it.

Break all attachment to my false identity,

like breaking fine crystal. 

Make it shatter into a million pieces, 

and melt into the ground of oblivion.

-Nanne Nyander "Out of the Labyrinth"

Leave Yourself Alone

  ©️ Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

Stop moving, 

stop grasping,

stay where you are my friend.

I’m here.

If you leave yourself alone, 

if you just let go,

I will be here to catch you.

I will hold you in my arms and love you forever. 

Nothing can keep us apart.

You and I are one. 

-Nanne Nyander "The Way Back Home"

Finding Myself

 Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

Mind is trying to delay me finding myself, 

mind is playing hide and seek. 

-Nanne Nyander "The Way Back Home"

Am I a Memory

 Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

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Was I the one that started all this, 

or am I a memory of the lost past in an illusionary world? 

-Nanne Nyander "The Struggle of Going Nowhere"

The Veil

 Nanne Nyander - Poems and Paintings

My mind is luring me

into the imaginary world of thinking.

Into the veil that distorts everything.

The gravitational pull is overpowering

and I’m moving towards thought like a magnet,

I can feel the gravitation getting weaker and weaker. 

But the pull is an illusion,

imaginary pictures floating around in space. 

I’m here.

-Nanne Nyander "The Way Back Home"